JOE SUGG

   Hello readers! I feel like I need to write this post and I should have done earlier. People who know me in real life and social media are aware of my love for a young man, a talented YouTuber, named Joseph Sugg. I've made little references for him on Man Crush Of The Week and People Who Made My 2014, check them if you haven't already. Anyway, this post is about me, expressing my feelings for him.
    It all started with one video. Just one single video was enough to make me starting fancy him. I am in love with his everything. His personality, attitude, accent and voice, sense of humour, pure heart, kindness, moral values. The way he moves, the way he walks, the way he talks. He's even good-looking. His hair look so soft, eyes are gorgeous, the best shades of blue, an adorable innocent smile, his arms, oh I really want to be hold by them. What is more, he is a talented person, who surprises everyone with his genuity. How can you not like him?
   I think that everyone has felt that way for somebody. People fall in love with mysterious ways. I fell for him because he's who he is. I love whatever he's consisted of. Some keep saying that I can't be in love with someone who doesn't know me and I have no chance to meet. But what I say is that he brought me feelings I didn't know I had. He is everything I want in my life. Because, for me, he is the ideal man. He have what a true and gentle man should have. I'm praying God to bring me a man like him one day. But I'm afraid I will never be able to have one. Because he's unique and I'll never have him. I don't deserve having him. I am able to give him the greatest love, but I am too "little" for a perfect guy like him.
    What I wish every night before going to bed is for him to always smile. I wish that everyone treats him as he deserves to be treated. He deserves to be given love and warmth. One day, he will have a girlfriend, then a wife, and I hope that he will get the best one, who will treat him perfect. If someone hurt him, they will have done a big mistake. A man like him mustn't be mistreated. He is so cute and I am sure of all the things he's able to do so as to please somebody. Nothing less than that is accepted. I wish that people who are around him give him what is right.
    I can understant that I am not the only fan is this entire world and that a lot of girls would die to date him (and marry him). I may be one of those girls, I don't know. What I'm sure about is that I've never loved someone the way I love him. As a human being, I feel that my existence is important and my feelings are important as well. I'm not asking for anything big to happen, as it is impossible for me to meet him, hug him and hear him talking to me. I wanna be sure that he is the happiest person in the world. That would be more than enough. I have created too many scenarios in my head, about the first time we meet, our first date, making videos and vlogging together, cooking together, having him sing to me, even our wedding and family life. These are all imagination, however. But I feel lucky for being able to watch his videos. The only thing that makes me actually smile. I could be writing too many things about him, but I think I should stop here. Thank you Joe. I love you.

POINTLESS POST

    Hey readers! I wanted to write something on here, but I had no idea what to discuss about, so I decided to let my feelings talk. Lately, I had that mental breakdown, also known as existential crisis *thumbs up emoji*. It all started because of overthinking, the only think that kills me every time. I felt that I had to deal with too many obligations, something that got me completely lost in my own mind. Too much homework, few hours of sleep, f*cked up diet, messy room, new thoughts, new experiences. Everything was TOO much for me, even though it may not sounds that bad. Last weekend, I felt like I had nothing to smile for. Fortunately, it was a #SUGGSUNDAYSPECIAL and I couldn't be happier (see? bipolar disorder). As I open my pc and pressed the play button for the video to start, I fainted. When I came conscious again, I felt dizzy since Sunday night till Monday afternoon. Luckily, it was not something to worry about, as I realized that it all was kind of a "challenge" of life and it made me re-think for some issues.
    Firstly, I understood that school is not going to confine my whole life. High school years may be the worst, but they're not going to last forever. I don't have to force myself into trying to give the 100% of my energy, so as to be the best student. I'll try in order to please myself, without destroying me physically and mentally. Secondly, I had "problems" with my crushes. There is a guy who I like for  a couple months (or more) and what got me having a crush on him is the fact that he's good-looking. Actually, he is so hot, but okay, I'm not gonna discuss further about him, cause I'm over him! He may be handsome, but I have no clue about his character and attitude, so I realized that it's something that gives me nothing and destructs me from life's happiness. As you may noticed, I typed "crushES", right? Well,that's something that complicates my mind a lot. Do I like a guy? Do I have a crush on him? Do I love him? Do I admire him as a human being? Do I want him to be friends with me? I have no freaking idea. Ugh, school crushes are the worst (dooon't say I didn't say, I didn't warned you!).
 

What I hated during this breakdown, is that I hated myself. Nothing worst that I could do to me. I felt useless and lonely, I've been angry with myself, my mind was an endless maze that I couldn't get out of it. But, now, I feel stronger than before. That's why I considered this as a challenge. It may had to happen, because now I have a clearer mind and I can finally stop being afraid to show who I actually am. I am not going to push myself into being someone who I'm not. I will not do that mistake again, nor fake a smile and feelings. I will be more relaxed and I'll deal with any matter when it's seeking for a solution. I'll smile more. I'll express myself. If you ever feel like that, remember that your whole body is working endlessly to keep you alive. It loves you, it takes care of you, regardless who you are. Love youself, because it's only you who will stay until the end of your life. Even your shadow leaves you when you're in the dark. So, take care of yourself. BUT, never forget to love people around you. This, however, will happen when you start loving yourself more. Also, do not feel alone. Someone will always be eager to listen to you.

MAN CRUSH OF THE WEEK : DYLAN O'BRIEN

• BIRTHDAY : August 26, 1991
• BIRTHPLACE : New York
• Actor, mostly known from MTV's "Teen Wolf". He stars in the movie "The Maze Runner", playing the character of Thomas.

Follow him on:

• twitter : https://twitter.com/dylanobrien 

MAN CRUSH OF THE WEEK : JAMES MCVEY

• BIRTHDAY : April 30, 1994
• BIRTHPLACE : England
• Lead guitarist and back up vocalist for the pop rock group The Vamps

Follow him on:

• twitter : https://twitter.com/thevampsjames
• instagram : http://instagram.com/iamjamesmcvey/

MAN CRUSH OF THE WEEK : CONNOR FRANTA

• BIRTHDAY : September 12, 1992
• BIRTHPLACE : Minnesota
• American YouTuber and incredible instagramer
• He was also member of O2L, but left in July 2014.

Subscribe to his channel : https://www.youtube.com/user/ConnorFranta

Like his facebook page: https://www.facebook.com/ConnorFrantaFans?fref=ts

Follow him on 

• twitter : https://twitter.com/connorfranta
• instagram : http://instagram.com/connorfranta/

WHAT THE FUTURE HOLDS?

   Apparently, we can't answer this question with certainty. This post is refering to the high-schoolers' stress when people ask them "what do you want to do for a living? what's the point of your life?". At this young and sensitive age, teenagers are usually not ready to decide what is good for them or what
they should do for the rest of their lives. They panic at the thought of that every decision they make will probably define their future. However, future is in their hands and they can do whatever they want to achieve their goals and be happy. For me, the problem is that school (in my country, especially) defines, in some grade, your job. Your whole future is depended on a few final exams you'll take at the end of high school, 2 hours each subject, and then, your final grades will define in which uiniversity you'll study. As I see it, this is kind of not okay, huh? I mean, how some exams can say if
you're good or bad enough to enter at a university? What about the students who want to be artists? School doesn't provide them with the suitable knowledge, for example, music or sketching subjects. But this is another matter. Oh! If a student decides not to take these exams, because he is not interested in becoming a doctor or architecture, for instance, they have to pay a university and study the subject they've picked, which will probably provide them with a job.


     Of course, future is not only having a job and earning money. We all have a life and we want to experience great things and to create moments. We are humans, we need to love and to be loved, we
want to travel the world, to meet new people who may be different from us. Some others want to stay alive forever, to make the whole humanity (now and in the future) remember them for being important. Thinking in that way, you'll understand that, while having a good job that will ensure your existence, you should also don't forget to live and be happy. Because, what's the point of being just wealthy and educated, but not having friends and people who love you? Will you have something funny and entertaining to remember from your young ages when you become old? Job is part of your life, not your whole future. I'm not saying that you don't have to work! What I'm trying to say is that, by doing a job you love, you'll never have to work. You will earn money in a way you enjoy, not just because your parents or teachers said so. And this is the hard part: how to pick something that makes me happy? How to accomplish working on something I love? As far as I'm concerned, this is really hard and you must put a lot of effort, time and money to succeed. The main "key" to success is passion for what you want. Loving something truly will make you approach it.

   Truth is that, for me, nothing is certain. Some people will be successful, some will not. Everyone, however, should be happy with what they have and face with positivity whatever comes in their life. People are made to be evolved and create new things every day. There are plenty of opportunities you
can grab, so be open in what comes in your life. Take risks and let changes enter your lifestyle. Don't be afraid to try everything you want and make your routine less boring and stressful. You have the power and with a couple of people who you love, you can reach great achievements. Don't forget to be kind and good things will happen to you. And remember: the winner is the dreamer who tried.

What is your opinion regarding the future? Are you doing something that you think is helpful for an interesting life? What aobut your dreams and how people react when you state your view about your future? Let me know in the comments!

Listen to this motivating song by my favorite Nina Nesbitt:

MAN CRUSH OF THE WEEK : JOSH HUTCHERSON

• BIRTHDAY : October 12, 1992
• BIRTHPLACE : Kentucky
• Film and tv actor, mostly known from his role as Peeta Mellark in The Hunger Games Series.

Follow him on twitter : https://twitter.com/jhutch1992

Like his official facebook page : https://www.facebook.com/JoshHutchersonFans

MY TOP 10 : INCREDIBLE TEAMS OF TWO

Hello! This posts is dedicated to people who I love when they're together. They are dating or they are best friends, but either way, they make an amazing combination!


TEAM #10 : MALFIE
Marcus Butler and Alfie Deyes are close friends. I love them because they have so much fun when
they're filming together and they're a good company when the cameras aren't there too. 

TEAM #9 : ZERRIE
Zayn Malik and Perrie Edwards are dating since 2011 and they were never afraid to show their love in front of cameras. Altough Perrie received some hate comments online, Zayn defended and protected her and their relationship.


TEAM #8 SOPHIAM
Liam Payne and Sophia Smith are dating since 2013, but they were friends before Liam became famous. I ship them because I feel that Liam is happier with her than with every other girl and she loves him for who he really is, not because he's a member of the most successful boyband in the world. 

TEAM #7 : JANYA
Jim Chapman and Tanya Burr are dating since 2006 and they are now engaged! The fact that they are together for so many years and they still love each other like it's the first time they've met, makes me believe in true love. They are both lovely and it's impossible not to ship them!



TEAM #6 : ELOUNOR
Louis Tomlinson and Eleanor Calder are dating since 2011. Their long-distance relationship and true love makes them an adorable couple and Louis's attention and dedication to her are priceless.


TEAM #5 : LARRY
Larry is a bromance of Louis Tomlinson and Harry Styles and I ship them as best friends. When they were put in the band together, they became great mates and I really love the friendship between these two and what they do for each other.


TEAM #4 : ZALFIE
Zoe Sugg and Alfie Deyes confirmed that they are dating in 2013. It's the cutest couple and my favorite! They recently moved in a house together (2014) and they got a puppy called Nala. What makes their relationship special is that they are also best friends and perfectly made for each other!


TEAM #3 : JASPAR
Joe Sugg and Caspar Lee are best friends and roommates since 2013. You just have to watch a video of  these two to understand the amazing friendship they have. They make fun of each other together and their relationship is precious. Even when they are not living together, when Caspar is in South Africa and Joe in Brighton, they are still connected in some way. 

TEAM #2 : PHAN

Dan Howell and Phil Lester are the bestest friends to ever exist! They're friends since 2009 and words are not enough to describe how perfect their relationship is! They had a radio show on BBC Radio1 for about a year, they have a channel where they play games together and an online shop. They are intelligent by themselves, but when together, they create an incredible couple with great sense of humour. 

TEAM #1 : TROYLER
Tyler Oakley and Troye Sivan are best friends and rumoured to be dating as they're both openly gay. For me, they are a brilliant team, because these two are great personalities and, together they make something unique. They are number one for me, because I find them really cool and they make me happy when I see them together.